Take Off Your Cool (to Him inspired by Outkast: Speakerbox/The Love Below)

Take Off Your Cool – Andre 3000 (OutKast) f. Norah Jones

Baby, take off your cool

I wanna see you, I wanna see you

Baby, don’t be so cool,

I wanna see you, I wanna see you

Dedicated to Him...

See me, Hear me, Feel me…

This is me transparently displaying more than just action with you in regard.  I wanna know all of you.  Know you in the most intimate of your thoughts, pleasures and desires.   I wanna know you all the way through.  Your concepts, ideas, points of view alongside your ambitions and fears.  With that all in my mind, I deliver me unto you.  Open and fully aware, inhibited, freely showing you all of me in return or even prior to. 

Baby, take off your cool

I wanna see you, I wanna see you

Baby, don’t be so cool,

I wanna see you, I wanna see you

See me grow, mature and even make some mistakes that may make you somewhat not pleased.  May be hard to watch but knowing I will get through it.  See me excel in my dreams as they come true one by one.  See my expectation to rejoice together.  See me want to be with you and please you.  See me show you without feeling as there is a need to prove.  See us be great, growing together but still keeping each piece in tact.

Baby, take off your cool

I wanna see you, I wanna see you

Baby, don’t be so cool,

I wanna see you, I wanna see you

Hear me when I say what I feel and desire whether pain, love or randomness.  Hear my honesty, being me in its entirety (good, fab, not so amusing, desirably sexy, and mildly mannish however it be).  Hear my desire for you and us.  Hear my point of view that may not always agree with yours, though respectable that there is a line at disagree.  Hear my heart speak directly to yours in more than just passion, exhilarating spiritual compassion for what’s within.  Hear the expression of soul to soul with no words audibly spoken though full conversations were heard.  Hear me declare us a team, knowing that I am your advocate and never intentionally your adversary.

Baby, take off your cool

I wanna see you, I wanna see you

Baby, don’t be so cool,

I wanna see you, I wanna see you

Feel my femininity as I am sincerely comfortable being a woman.  I love my features and know what works where with this/that and where it all should be.  Feel that I choose to display my features how I choose to which makes me happy to be me.  Feel that I love me enough to love you.  Feel my flaws as they are in existence in tune with the rest of me even when they’re showcase not some of my best moments.  Feel that it is ok to not particularly be fond of those attributes acknowledging that they are mere parts that should not impact heavier than the things that you adore.  Feel me love hard, completely without restriction.  Feel me allow you into my spaces freely and especially. 

Baby, take off your cool because all I want is to know you.

I am a BELIEVER...

I am a believer.  

I believe that He died on the cross so that I may have life and that He has a plan for my life.

I am not perfect yet no one is.  I have made a multitude of mistakes yet I have learned and grown.  I do not read my bible as much as I should yet I try to speak to Him all day in prayer and in spirit. 

I have a tattoo that I got when I was 21 though in the Old Testament it does speak to marking your temple.  I also have holes in each ear.  Sometimes I partake in a cocktail or 5.  There are times when I am not as polite or nice and my tongue gets a little slick.  I have been guilty of talking too much, cussing too much and not being enough.  I have not always told the truth and I have been vindictive though it was not always with malicious intent.  I have been faithful and faithless.  While I am being honest, I try not to complain, but there are times when my faith gets so low and I go into a woe is me.  I try to be a good person.  I am compassionate, empathetic and try to do the right thing.  I try to be a good daughter, sister and friend.  I try to be a woman of good moral character.  I try to be a woman of my word and sometimes I fall short though my intentions are always good.  There are times when my intentions are good and nothing may come from them.  I have faults and flaws.  I try to just be me.  I am constantly striving to be better.  There are times when my emotions get the best of me.  There are times when I am in a sexy sort of mood and I choose to give into my temptations.  I like kissing and sex.  I know that in my walk I need to abstain but I still believe.

My birthday is in October and my zodiac sign is Libra.  Occasionally I refer to my balance and some of the other “Libra attributes” as it applies.  I do not study astrology as I understand that it is a form of divination.  In my study I also learned that there is a difference between astrology and astronomy but that is an interesting tale for another time.  I do not worship the stars and believe that they can predict the future.  I don’t read horoscopes for belief or interpretation.  It is a form of entertainment from time to time but nothing consistently but I still believe.

I work on most Sundays but when I don’t I enjoy going to church.  I like going to church not just because it is a habit and what I have always done but because I sometimes need a little something to make it through.  I need that word of encouragement or chastisement.  I need someone to pray for me because there are times when I have a hard time praying for myself.   I need the fellowship of the people of faith so I can feel the strength of two or more gathered in His name.  Every time I have been to church in the last few months the word was tailor made for me in this specific season in my life.  I believe that is not a coincidence and He has my being in mind.

I have had a plenty and I have had not enough.  I have been in good grace and I have needed mercy.  I have been through some life.  Life has been lived in some areas.  I have had some not so grand moments.  Those instances were not my finest hours but they were proven to be character building.  I have had some low, dark valley moments.  I can honestly say that the valley gets real dark and lonely.  I have experienced not knowing where my next was coming from and/or I do not know how I am going to make it.  I have had some late night so much is on my mind knowing that I am not supposed to worry moments – more than I truly care to acknowledge.  I have cried and questioned His presence on more than one occasion.  Yet I still choose to believe that everything that I have been through has not been designed to take me out.

I am a believer.  I believe that I can be all of the above and still be a believer.  I can still repent and desire better.  I believe that all that I have experienced in this life is by His design for me to reach my level.  I believe that I get in my own way often.  I procrastinate and I am not using all my gifts (I am working on this right now).  I believe in what I don’t see but feel His presence often.  No, I am not living my best life right at this moment but I can see the growth which is worth so much more than my situations and even that is improving.   I believe in those down low alone moments that He heard my cry.  I believe that He was there when I felt like I had no one.  I believe that life without believing in something, especially Him is a life lived without hope.  I believe that the sad part of being is being without hope and faith in He. I believe that when one chooses to believe it does not mean that life will be perfect without any problems or situations. There will be joys, trials and triumphs.  There is nothing new happening now that was not in the bible.  There were people who believed and those that didn’t because they chose not.  There murders, rapist, adulterers, fornicators, pimps and prostitutes; victims and victors.  There were nations at war; there was racism and outcasts; there was hate, hope and havoc amongst some liars, cheaters and believers.  There were/are rich, poor and poorer than poor.  There were rich nations and poor nations.  There is nothing new happening that wasn’t in the bible.  

With all of that I still choose to believe.

Kind of Love (Musically Inspired)

kind of love: musically inspired

A RIBBON IN THE SKY that MAKES ME HAPPIER THAN THE MORNING SUN or a FULL MOON that makes me feel like a NATURAL WOMAN

Kind of love.

Feeling your BODY AND SOUL all BETWEEN THE SHEETS TIL THE COPS COME KNOCKIN in our NO ORDINARY LOVE

Kind of love.

SOMETHING IN MY HEART that makes me WEAK because this LOVE WONT LET ME WAIT

Kind of love.

LOVE ME IN A SPECIAL WAY which makes me DANGEROUSLY IN LOVE with you in a SPEECHLESS kind of way when I can do is SAY YES

Kind of love.

CLOSER to my dreams it makes me wanna share THIS BODY THAT LOVES YOU ANY TIME, ANY PLACE

Kind of love

JUST ME AND YOU for ALL MY LIFE that makes me feel as if YOU COMPLETE ME with no RESENTMENT CAUSE I LOVE YOU