Day 3: What are you top 3 Pet Peeves?

TOP 3 PET PEEVES

in no particular order

* GRAMMATICAL ERRORS  - I try my best not to be the grammar police (though I am always correcting to myself) but there is nothing like a meme that is so awesome but I WILL NOT POST because the grammar is incorrect and apparently no one knows any such tense.

* SIDE CHICK GLORIFICATIONS - I cannot with this foolery. GET YO ENTIRE LIFE!!!

*INCONSIDERATION – inconsiderate of time, feelings and people. It aint hard (I know that is not correct but someone speaks ebonics and understood). If there is an issue stay in your own lane

Day 2: Write something that someone told you about yourself that you never forgot.

GET YOUR HEART AND MIND ALIGN SO YOU CAN BE WHOLE

When my daddy dies it seemed as if my entire life rapidly fell apart.  I lost my job and my car.  I was all over the place emotionally and I cannot even share what my mental was like.  It was  crash and burn time period. I didn't know how I was going to make it or where my next anything was coming from while trying to cypher out what me new normal was to be with my daddy gone.  It was all too much so many days.  I recall the pain and heartache and the get yourself together and find a job.  After a couple of months, my mom finally said it.  pack your stuff and come home (back to LA) once your lease it up. She said that Atlanta will be there and you can always go back but you gotta get your head and your heart align so that you can be whole.  This is no way to go through life. 

And I did.

It turned out to be a wonderful decision that truly allowed me to heal (to an extent) and deal with all of the things that I was feeling in a productive manner.  I was able to take my time and be surrounded with people that loved on me in a way that I would not have experienced if I had stayed in Atlanta.  It wasn't my time and sometimes you have to give in to reach your potential.  I am grateful for that time and all of the relationships that were cultured during that time.

Day 1: List 10 Things that Make You Really Happy.

In no particular order

1. no longer being single makes me really happy.  The struggle was real and I have to admit there was a time that I wasn't sure if marriage was ever really going to happen for me.  I am happy that I was eventually receptive to this man.  He has brought a passion into my life that I didn't know was missing.

2. My husband's love and support of me and my family makes me happy.  It is not every day that a person can truly love his inlaws in a way that is like his very own. I love and appreciate that about him.  It makes me extremely happy to know that we journey through life together with such love.

3. I am happy to know that I have really wonderful people in my life that simply want the very best for me.  It has a long road to friendship which leads me to #4

4. I am happy to know and have such discernment which piggybacks on my #3.  Throughout life there are times when your  thoughts, beliefs and love for people are tested.  I have not always passed those test.  There have been times when people have stayed around a lot longer than they should have (I allowed it) and it sometimes clouded my judgement on people that were for me.  This makes me really happy.

5. fantastic eyelashes and lipstick makes me happy.  not a typical something but these girly things are awesome to me.

6. My new children make me happy in a way that I did not know was possible.  I am newly married and do not plan on having children of my own but thankfully my husband came with kids that are pretty awesome.  It is a major transition but it has proven to be fairly rewarding thus far.

7. Music makes me really happy.  Real Music with great lyrics and not just a hot beat.

8. LOVE makes me really happy.  Again, I have amazing people in my life that I genuinely love through the thick of it,  Being so far away has truly made me solidify how much these people mean to me.

9.  Brunch makes me really happy when you're amongst like minded people that believe that cocktails are necessary

10. WORDS - I always feel that I have so much to say but always want to be understood.  I try my best to use my words to the best of my ability.

Day 19: Something given by a loved one

I am THANKFUL that DADDY GAVE ME FRECKLES

Day 8: I am THANKFUL for GENEROSITY (late edition)

A few years ago, I made really decent money.  I had an awesome apartment and a car.  I was able to take care of myself and I was self sufficient.  I was able to splurge on frivolous things.  It was a good life that I was comfortable living.  I never really took into consideration how much that would change or how much I would change along with it.

I never truly considered myself a prideful person until after my daddy died and my world changed.  I am not the kind of person that likes to ask for help.  I have a helping spirit.  I do whatever I can for someone I care about and I do it without expectation.  Generally if there is a need, I assist.  My friends would tell you that whatever I have is there’s without many limitations.  This attribute has been both a blessing and a curse. I do not comfortably accept or ask for help. Though, I have gotten much better at both.  I am truly my father's daughter (mistaking my pride for weakness). I don't want to need help and surely don't want to ask for it.  I haven’t really been a hand out type of person.  I have always believed that hard work and dedication do not go unnoticed but that is not always true.  While being in my storm, I have been learning about myself which is quite humbling.   

I am THANKFUL that I have realized that it is not weak to accept help when you need it.  I am thankful that there have been people in my life that have given help when I needed/wanted.  All the times that there was money slipped, nights out and wine in – hair appointments and rides given.   I am THANKFUL that I have realized that sometimes it is sometimes a blessing to someone else to be able to do for me.  I am THANKFUL that I have realized that doing for someone sometimes come back through other people and not always for the people that you did for.  I am THANKFUL for the GENEROSITY of people.

Day 1: At this moment I am THANKFUL for....

At this moment - I am THANKFUL that I woke up in my right mind.  There are days that this is sort of questionable to an extent.  Sometimes the matters of my world hold me hostage and attempt to the choke the life out of me.  I can hardly breathe and hardly function in my being.  Its tough pill to swallow.  I am not where I want to be in life.  I do not have the job/career that makes me completely happy or financially secure.  I sometimes worry where my next is coming from and why I am in this standby place.  It reminds me of planes on the runway waiting for their turn to take off.  I am soooooooooooo ready for takeoff but apparently it is not my turn just yet.  I am learning patience, clinging to my faith and trying to remain optimistic.  In my honesty, I am not always successful.  Some days I wake up feeling defeated and try my best to move through it. I feel as if my life is doomed and it spills over into my attitude towards others and life in general.  In these moments I am not the most positive to be around.  In those days it is a series of circumstances and situations that go through my mind and into my psyche sharing that I am not good enough and not worth it.  I am no myself and not completely in my right mind.  With all of that said, I am THANKFUL that today is not one of those days and I am feeling optimistic.  I am glad to be doing this challenge to keep my mind and thoughts positive.  Sometimes I need to be encouraged and today I am encouraging myself.  Today could be the day that everything changes for me and if I am not in my right mind I may miss my blessing and/or breakthrough.

Today’s Mantra: God I know that you are at work in my life.  Although the miracle I’ve been watching for may not happen today.  I know that I am one day closer to it.  I’m one day closer to my answered prayer, and I’m not going to be upset. I’ll not allow myself to become discouraged.  I know that your timing is perfect, so I am going to stay in an attitude of faith and keep trusting you to do what is best.  Father, I praise you for all favor today. 

                               In Your Name, Amen.

30 Days of Thanks Blog Challenge -

 There are so many things to be THANKFUL for and sometimes we are not in tune with the little things and are conflicted by all the things that we do not have.  I am guilty as well.  In the spirit of November and the THANKSGIVING season here is the November Blog Challenge – should you choose to accept it. 

30 Days of Thanks.  Each day has a TOPIC to be THANKFUL for and the CHALLENGE is to write a post regarding it.  However you choose – be creative and think about it.  CHALLENGE!!!!

 

btw, DAY 31 is a reflection to conclude this challenge.

 

November 1-30, 2012 - Please let me know if you are participating so that I can read your post and feel free to check me out on FACEBOOK  or Twitter (@NVFreckles).

 

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #30: A photo of me today and 3 things that have happened in the last 30 days

Three things that has happened in the last 30 days...

I found some new bloggers that I enjoy reading and creating new relationships

Found my inspiration again through be open to new experiences

I have a new crush - we shall see what words come from this...

I guess now that this challenge is over I actually need to write something.  I have a few ideas but Isuppose that I will become alot more open and honest about how I see situations that are currently going in my life.  Many of the new bloggers that I have began following are very honest about their current dealings and I admire that.  I am encouraged to do so.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #29: Something that I could never get tired of doing

Love is more than an emotion. It is in our existence.  In our hopes, dreams and all ambitions.  If you love something its worth it.  Its hard work, dedication, foundation.  It's the beginning and the end.  We all love in some shape or fashion.  Its love of self, others, careers, education, materials etc.  There is always something to love.  Love feels good, bags, hurts so good or can hurt so bad.  Love is felt, made and created. When one gets tired of loving, there is not much left to their existence.

I am nothing without LOVE.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #28: MY Favorite Movie

Say, baby... can I be Your slave? I've got to admit girl you're the shit girl... and I'm digging you like a grave. Now, do they call you Daughter to the Spinning Pulsar... or maybe Queen of 10,000 moons? Sister to the Distant yet Rising Star? Is your name Yemaya? Oh, hell no. Its got to be Oshun. Oooh, is that a smile me put on your face, child... wide as a field of jasmine and clover? Talk that talk, honey. Walk that walk, money. High on legs that'll spite Jehovah. Shit. Who am I? It's not important. But me they call me brother to the night. And right now... I'm the blues in your left thigh... trying to become the funk in your right. Who am I? I'll be whoever you say? But right now I'm the sight-raped hunter... blindly pursuing you as my prey. And I just want to give you injections... of sublime erections... and get you to dance to my rhythm... make you dream archetypes... of black angels in flight... upon wings of distorted, contorted... metaphoric jizm. Come on slim. Fuck your man. I ain't worried about him. It's you who I want to step to my scene. 'cause rather the deal with the fallacy... of this dry-ass reality... I'd rather dance and romance your sweet ass in a wet dream. Who am I? Well, they call me Brother to the night. And right now I'm the blues in your left thigh... trying to become the funk in your right. Is that all right?

Poetry is the possibility of language.

All of this people running around here jumping, skipping, falling in love…falling in love ain’t shit. Somebody talk to PLEASE about how to stay there…

You always want what you want when you want it. Why is everything so urgent with you?
Let me tell you somethin'. This here, right now, at this very moment, is all that matters to me. I love you. That's urgent like a motherfucker

When a man gets a hard on, you know where the blood come from, right? You know where the blood come from, right? His head and his feet. So A - he's stupid and B - he can't run.

people who say love does not exist have actually exceeded the possibility

Romance is dead is what they said while sittin around cheating at pool the very last frame of this nine ball game, the cat who had the date on the top of the empire state is the one who got hustled like a fool

ROMANCE…

is about the possibility of the thing.
From the time when you first meet some fine ass woman…
To the time you make love to her.
From the time you first propose to her.
To the time you say i do. When people who have been together for a long time say that the romance is dead….nuh uh……they just EXHAUSTED THE POSSIBILITIES

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #27: First 10 Songs in my IPOD (music player) from shuffle

First 10 Songs after shuffle

1.    Spaghetti Junction – OutKast

2.    Something – Musiq

3.    Hey You - Floetry

4.    Im DIggin You (like an old soul record)

5.    Didn’t You Know – Erykah Badu

6.    I Rep The West – Ice Cube

7.    Never Give You Up – Raphael Saddiq

8.    Electric Relaxation  - Tribe Called Quest

9.    Rolling In the Deep – Adele

10. Closet Freak - CeeLo

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #25: Something that I miss

Something that I miss...

2 years 6 months 26 days

RIP Daddy Freckles



30 Day Blog Challenge Day #24: Whats in my purse

What's in MY purse?

well....

my wallet, everyday makeup bag, sunglasses, a mirror, petroleum jelly, earbuds, a brush, my notebook (never know when writing will come - inspiration).

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #23: 20 Facts about ME

1.    I do not eat gravy

2.    I have freckles

3.    I write because it makes me feel closer to Daddy (RIP)

4.    I love to kiss

5.    I miss music videos (I use to love to memorize the dance routines)

6.    I miss being a bartender

7.    Ive dated “others” but have not ever pursued a relationship with a non black man but I have thought about it [WHITE MEN CANT JUMP]

8.    I always have a notebook in my purse just in case something said or heard is meaningful for reference

9.    I love shoes (the higher the sexier)

10. Snickers are a point of weakness for me

11. I think about sex often (like a dude)

12. I’m an EAGLES fan

13. I love music with real lyrics

14. I enjoy brunch with Mimosas

15. I miss Tribe Called Quest

16. I graduated from the illustrious Fisk University (HBCUs ROCK!!!)

17. Avid Coffee Drinker

18. I still believe in Chilvary

19. I’m 32 with these awesome freckles and no children (I don’t think that I have a clock or it needs battery)

20.  dope, awesome, right and word are in my general vocabulary

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #22: My day by bullet

My Day By Bullet

Ø Woke up in my right mind (which is nice because some days are honestly better than others.  However this morning was awesome) Thankful that God gave me another chance to try to get it right or at least learn something that will make me better.

Ø Got myself together and went to work

Ø Tweeted on my way to work.  (One of my attractive male followers randomly tweets off hash tags regarding himself but us yet to respond a response.

Ø Thought about him

Ø Thought about sex

Ø Got work and earned my keep today.

Ø My coworker brought me some bakes ziti and spinach for lunch today and it was AWESOME.

Ø  Thought about something sexual

Ø Stop by CVS on my way home (I have a strong dislike for papery toilet paper and when the 2 ply is shedding (CHEAP) so upgrading the tissue was necessary.  I wanted to get some wine but one of the chick’s that worked there was so busy tearing all the sale tabs off that I didn’t quite know what I wanted to get that would have been on sale so I opted out.

Ø Thought about him

Ø Sexy little thought or four

Ø Purposely missed a call from a stalker (I have got to stop giving my number out)

Ø Got 2 tacos and a chicken sandwich from jack n the box (only ate one taco and my chicken sandwich was dry.)

Ø Sat for sec and then put some clothes on to go over my mom’s bffs house for drinks and to celebrate their birthday again (their birthday was on Monday but they still celebrating).

Ø Heard someone say something very profound – “a person has to change or they will stop growing” (I’m going to write something of relevancy upon the subject – stay tuned)

Ø Thought about him

Ø Before we went over there I had a mini photo shoot via my laptop using a new program on my computer (good times) I need to better use more the functions/programs that are on my computer.

Ø Felt sexy enough to consider some sort of and then changer my thoughts all together

Ø Wined and socialized

Ø Thought about him

Ø Thought about sex

Ø Thought about sex with him

Ø Picked out what I am wearing to church in the AM

Ø Reviewed all the pictures from the night

Ø Checked my email/ facebook/twitter ( not really in that order)

Ø Realized that I hadn’t posted this post for the challenge

Ø Thinking about taking myself to sleep

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #21: A Picture of Something that Makes Me Happy

Something that makes me happy is...

CHOCOLATE

I cannot go wrong with it at all.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #19: Another Picture of Me

Me looking into Me.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day #18: Something I Crave

Something I Crave

2 years ago my daddy died.  A week after we buried him, I lost my job.  I picked up part time jobs and worked out all the time to hold it together.  That is the year that I turned 30 but it did not seem to happy.  6 months after that I moved back to Los Angeles from Atlanta.  My mother said that I needed to deal with everything and get myself back together.  Thankful for my mother.  My heart has been broken yet to mend but the days have gotten easier.  I do not cry everyday anymore but when I do cry... Some days are just better than others.  Once back in LA, I worked a plethora of temp jobs while going to countless interviews with no avail.  Then I did not work for 6 months.  Nothing.  Not working and being alone will play on your psyche.  I ended up getting a permanent part time job which I am grateful to have but it is not ideal.  The struggle is a little different.  However the light is now flickering.  My living situation has changed and its for the best but now I lack space but its for the best.  New Year's Eve my paternal grandmother died.  In that instant I felt that heartbreak again.  My chest hurts and the pain lingers.  I was unable to attend due to my finances but I was able to go half on my sister's ticket which was the brighter side.  right?  I am glad that I spoke to her and she knew that I loved her.  She told me how much she loved me too.  I didnt know then but now I see it was the final goodbye.  I wish that I would have been able to speak to my daddy and tell him that I love him ( amongst other things).  I wish there was some sort of goodbye.  I hold some guilt (which use to be alot of guilt) with my grief that I sometimes dont let me off the hook for.  There are moments when I feel more than inadequate if there is such a thing.  I am not utilizing my potential.  I am not where I figure that I am suppose to be in my life - well more so where I want to be since apparently this is my plan.  My emotions are up and down and I sometimes feel the need to pull away from those that love me most. I know there has got to be light at the end but as of now its just flickering. Of course there are people that are going through a lot more and have a lot less but sometimes I cant care about them because I am only thinking about me.  (kind of ugly and selfish, huh?) Sometimes in reflection I wonder what God really has in store for me and what it is that He wants me to learn.  Ive been in this holding pattern for a long time and yet in still I am still blessed. (thankful)  I sometimes I am not able to be thankful that He chose me to go through this all right now bute in the large scope of things I am.   sometimes dont know what to pray for so I just thank Him.  My HOPE gives me FAITH that all shall come pass. Learning to PATIENT though sometimes I feel like I am failing.  Honestly right now all I crave is PEACE.





30 Day Blog Challenge Day #17: My Celebrity Crush

George Wilson

#37 (Strong Safety) Buffalo Bills

Had a decent season.

FINE

from Kentucky

FINE

Went Arkansas

was in Marsha Ambrosius video Late Night, Early Morning

I sure would.



30 Day Blog Challege Day #16: A photo of me and my family

THIS IS A PHOTO OF ME AND MY FAMILY

(From Left to Right): 

My Maternal Grandmother, My Mother, Me and My Sister

4 Generations of Black Women

now I am all caught up... Again, I apologize for the delay

HAPPY MONDAY!!!