Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Day 6: I am THANKFUL for WRITING...

I am thankful for WORDS to WRITE.   I write about all sorts of stuff and I don’t necessarily write for anyone else.  I just write.  I write my thoughts.  I write what's on my mind, something that happened, something someone said, something someone did, a response to conversations had, my feelings, dealing and getting to know myself and my love for love.  I write because it frees me of some of the thoughts frolicking in my head.

I have been in the process of writing a book or four for the last 2 years.  Initially, I began writing, in no real order just writing.  A few different concepts and per some of my past blog posts.  I talked to some friends and they were all about it and kept saying yeah, yeah, yeah - that’s good.  I can’t wait to buy your book.  They pumped me up and I went hard... simply writing.  THEN, I lost my inspiration.  I couldn’t write anything.  NOTHING came from pen to paper.  Nothing for 20 days.  I sat up all night reading books, other blogs, newspapers, my old WRITINGS and more books.  I watched movies, listened to music and even made special play lists for some inspiration.  I had some great conversations with friends and even talked to God to mildly beg Him to give me some inspiration and/or direction.  NOTHING for 20 days. NO blogs and NO book. NOTHING. [INSERT FRUSTRATED FACE HERE] I was blocked along with all the words that were in me.  I think I just got overwhelmed with the concept of book.  Folks would ask "how's the book coming?" and I would have nothing to say.  It was a masterpiece of minimalism (from my favorite movie of course).   


I am THANKFUL that WRITING is my outlet.  I think that I WRITE well.  I think that I tell a story well.  I love the conversations and accolades that come from folks that know me.  I believe that I have a something to say although sometimes it is rather random.  I think that I have experiences to share that people can relate to.  I even have people that support my WRITING and tell me how good I am all the time attempting to keep me encouraged. [INSERT SMILE HERE]  All wonderful things and I appreciate it but I AM NOT SURE IF I AM GOOD ENOUGH TO WRITE A BOOK yet I still WRITE.  I am THANKFUL that I am not a quitter – though I am a procrastinator [INSERT EMBARRASSMENT HERE].  I WRITE all the time and it is not always for public eyes.  I WRITE to let go of some feelings that tend to linger.  I WRITE to free frustrations and worry and sometimes doubt.  I still WRITE letters and cards to be special.  I WRITE and I am do refer to myself as a WRITER.

I am THANKFUL for WRITING because it makes me feel closer to my daddy.  My father was talented with his words.  He had a way with them and wrote music.  Upon reflection, his way with words was powerful and captivating.  He wrote all the time.  I sometimes wish that I was mature enough to be around when my daddy was WRITING.  I wish that I would have known more about his process.  I wish that I could have understood more about his inspiration.  Since I am not able, I just WRITE and try to channel him and allow him to part of my INSPIRATION.

8 comments:

Daddy Squeeze Me! said...

I love this. I used to be a blogger, but I stopped because I didnt think anyone gave a damn. Now more than ever I want to start again because many sites geared towards my community just can not seem to get it right. I really hate that. Part of me just wants to say fuck it all and not even try again, but each time I read a site that is not right, I am like god I could do so much better than this. lol

I really love your blog.

Freckles said...

You should totally begin blogging again. I think that writing is good, helpful and just simply therapeutic.

I am all up and down all the time with the writing. I have to be be inspired. There are some topics that I write about that are not public but I write none the less.

Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate you.

1manview said...

I write pretty much for release of my thoughts and relaxation. I tend to let things bottle up inside, so I started doing something I never did before. Write poetry. I use both blogs to unshade myself, but I really need three. But then that would let too many people see inside me. Writing has helped my marriage because my spouse read things about me she never thought I was thinking, or how strong my love was for her. I always though if you showed how you felt, then there shouldn't be any thoughts. But I was wrong, a woman needs to hear it also.... I would like to see some of your writings, I like reading other people work. Writing is a full time learning experience...

Don said...

Interesting. Neither one of my parents (not that I'm aware) were writers at heart. Just reading how your father shared a passion for the pen makes me wonder the things my parents would've written had it been apart of their spirits as well. I believe this is one of the reasons why I write, so that my seeds are able to reflect upon it all long after I've breathed my final breath.

Love it.

tha unpretentious narcissist© said...

continue what you love. i love that your father is your inspiration, and you can feel closer to him through your writing. that's wonderful. i got confidence in you, just ride the "writer block" out, it happens to everyone at some point and time. but when it hits you it will flow like a river...

Freckles said...

I am THANKFUL thatyou read my blog. I am working on some books concepts. I was thinking about posting some excerpts to feel which directions to go. I will be sure to let you know when and if I do so.

Yes women need to hear it but actions are great too but the two together is explosive. Writing is a wonderful thing. I am glad that your writing has been aan outlet for you. There is nothing good comes from bottled up emotions.

yes writing is always evolving and as ong as we aare open we do to.

thanks for reading.

Freckles said...

I wish that I had access to some of my dads old notebooks. It would be awesome to have another part of him. Your girls should be so blessed to have that part of you.

thanks for reading.

Freckles said...

anticipating the flow.

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