…doubt is the rust of life
Doubt holds you landlocked in paralysis unable to move either way. The time you spent doubting is the time you are not alive. So, rid yourself of the doubt, take that step one way or another, your heart knows what is best, but take it right now.
Noun: A feeling of uncertainty or lack of conviction
Verb: Feel uncertain about
Synonyms: Question, Uncertainty, Qualm, Suspect, Mistrust, Query
After I read it, I read it again and again allowing the words to seep into my spirit. Sooooo dead on and so true to this very moment. Doubt and I have a sordid love/hate affair. We tend to bump heads like bulls in heat. It’s always overwhelming and/or frustrating when Doubt rears its ugly head.
There are times when doubt creeps in and tries to steal my joy. Sometimes there are thoughts of the past, shoulda, coulda & wouldas followed by some self inadequacies. Why am I not doing this or that? Why am I still in this same situation? When is it my turn to cceed? Why am failing to an extent? It’s always some kind of crazy how the mind works. How in a moment pleasantries turn and vulnerability sets in. I am in a strange point in my life. I am about to be a year older and still not completely moving into the direction of upgrade. I need a life upgrade. I need to know where and what I am suppose to be doing with my life. What I want to be doing vs. What I should be doing. Just a few of the questions flood my mind and corrupt my thoughts – doubt enters. I begin having a bunch of conflicting thoughts. Am I good enough? Am I worthy? Am I this or that? I am so all over the place mentally/emotionally/financially. I am still working through it all and I know that I am not the only one that fools around with doubt but like any unworthy relationship, its short term.