it’s
kind of ironic that this time last year i allowed you back into my life after
all of that time. it had been over 15 years since our last relationship and
over 6 years since the last time i put my eyes on you. i seeked you initially just to check in and
that is probably when i first went wrong yet there are no regrets. we conversed and caught up. it was nice. it all seemed to flow
easily. i was gitty yet no expectations. 2011 Easter weekend was beautiful. we were
awesome. you seemed to be sure. then you said that i was what you wanted. i
heard you and felt you and thought that this was the beginning. it now seems
that all of what i thought was in my head yet my heart said otherwise. we went
hard and we went fast and somehow didn’t stay on the same page. it was a good ride. i learned some things
that have made me stronger, smarter and more aware. i felt some things that i
didn’t know to be as powerful, real and deep. i loved. i hurt. i grew. i
embraced and now let go. maybe you weren't really meant for me and maybe i wasn’t
really meant for you though i did love what we were. here is it is Easter again
and we are no longer a “we”. there is you and an i. separate. completely apart.
what difference a year makes?
2 comments:
went through something real similar recently too but you're right you learn and then you move on. a lot easier said than done obviously but eventually that's what it comes down to.
girrrrrrrrrrrrrrl... it is just a character building experience. whole lot easier said than done for sure.
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