it’s kind of ironic that this time last year i allowed you back into my life after all of that time. it had been over 15 years since our last relationship and over 6 years since the last time i put my eyes on you. i seeked you initially just to check in and that is probably when i first went wrong yet there are no regrets. we conversed and caught up. it was nice. it all seemed to flow easily. i was gitty yet no expectations. 2011 Easter weekend was beautiful. we were awesome. you seemed to be sure. then you said that i was what you wanted. i heard you and felt you and thought that this was the beginning. it now seems that all of what i thought was in my head yet my heart said otherwise. we went hard and we went fast and somehow didn’t stay on the same page. it was a good ride. i learned some things that have made me stronger, smarter and more aware. i felt some things that i didn’t know to be as powerful, real and deep. i loved. i hurt. i grew. i embraced and now let go. maybe you weren't really meant for me and maybe i wasn’t really meant for you though i did love what we were. here is it is Easter again and we are no longer a “we”. there is you and an i. separate. completely apart. what difference a year makes?