Dear Heartache,
You made a fool of me. Allowed me to feel so many amazing things at
one point and then took it all away to make me feel broken alone and
defeated. I don’t like to play games and
cannot fathom the reason as to why you felt the need to play with my heart and
complicated my emotions. My heart was so
fragile and my emotions confuse my logic.
Sometimes you have to laugh to keep from
crying. The laughter of pain is a tearful
shame. The shame fills up the pain of the
heart and wounds the soul. The hurt
turns to anger that soon exacerbates the stomach’s pit. Constant tears drained
night after night in an attempt to purge the array of emotions that consume the
spirit that was once full of happiness.
Attempting to make sense of that has transpired to brought to this point
to be engulfed you and this heartbreak.
The crying doesn’t heal and doesn’t fix the void you have caused. You, heartache, promote so much pain.
Hurt, anger, confusion, mild rage,
sadness brings me closer to you. Wishing
not to hold onto you in my dreams and move past your selfish intentions to hold
me captive. I want to believe this not
forever and that one day moving forward and past will bring light to the end of
this dark tunnel.
I slowly feel you unwrapping me and
leaving me apart and alone. All these
emotions at once, completely numb with no way to run. The desire for you to go away is so real and
unshakable at the same time. Yearning
for the love but we keep bumping into you like this. Not able to shake you and frustration settles
your deep ache and continual burn.
I refuse to give into you. You will not continue to consume me. I have faith and favor. I have belief in the great good and will
depart from you. I just have to hope for
better. It can happen and it will. I will be stronger and you will not last
always.
Goodbye Heartache
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