Monday, January 17, 2011


Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better. To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better.
King Whitney Jr

There are so many things changing around me.  Some of it good, some of it bad and some of it is simply just changing.  There are times when I am hopeful that the good will out weight the bad and that the bad is simply a figment of my imagination that will simply change.  Confused?
My life has changed a lot within the last year and half.  I moved back to LA from Atlanta which has been more monumental than I give credit on top of my unstable emotions caused by grief.  My father died and that has been more than tough and some days are better than others.  I have not completely found a balance in that change but I do know that guilt and greif is a hell of a mix. I have had several jobs but nothing very steady or completely full time.  I have recognized that my mother is a woman outside of being my mother. My sister had a daughter which is awesome that I was here for my sister and her family.  I reunited with some old friends from high school.  The time difference has impacted some of my most significant friendships and relationships along with all the things that I have been feeling. I have changed and I have not been able to find my new normal or where I fit in. 
Any transition serious enough to alter your definition of self will require not just small adjustments in your way of living and thinking but a full-on metamorphosis.
Martha Beck, O Magazine, Growing Wings, January 2004

Life goes on with or without you around.  It sounds rather cold but it is true.  Life went on without me in LA and I had built a life for myself in Atlanta.  Both of those lives have changed and moved on with and without me.  I am here now and often just sort of feel that there has been so much change that I cannot seem to catch my breath or seemingly deal with or wonderg if I am dealing the right way.  I guess I am trying to figure out what I am suppose to learn from all the change.
I know that I am not the only one that  has to learn from change or even deal with it.  We live, lose, love and learn. Som I am curious to know the thoughts of others so that I can complete this post. 

What are yout thoughts on change?


sunshinestar110 said...

Change is good but for me its also scary...I have always been the type of person who strayed away from change I love things to be one way forever and I'm still battling that today. Change is what makes us better nd different sometimes you have to change somethings to get to things. I'll say that after reading this you have changed my mind about change!

tha unpretentious narcissist© said...

i know i was following your blog, but when i looked i didn't see my icon. so i followed you again. i didn't see your updates on my dashboard when i did my catching up, so i'm sorry. dunno what happened. anyway..i'm back in the follow fold. so onto my comment.

change to me like sunshinestar110 said is good, but always scary. i tend to hate change. maybe because i'm a creature of habit. maybe cause i'm a routine type guy. change always equals experience. but to me it always disrupts what i know & what i feel secure with. i guess to me it means uncertainty. and sometimes it's a welcome feeling when you're lost. but when you're not lost, change is like hell.

i hope that makes sense. if not, oh

Freckles said...

Sunshinestar110, CHANGE is fundamental kind of like reading. When we read something we learn. It's hella scary especially the unknown. I fear the unknown but I gotta open up to it so that I can learn whatever it is that I need to learn from it so that I can be a better person and a better woman. Just like the season EVERYTHING MUST CHANGE... way deep but trying to tune in to grow.

TUN, I am glad that our following situation is control. I am trying to be better but I have to say that I tend to catch up and go through your posts in groups. I am get in the zone and you are so good for inspiration.

CHANGE IS SCARY! It iws fully disrupting everything that was normal for me and has opened insecurities that I didnt know that I had but with all of this I am learning. I am learning more about myself and though I didn't really know that I was lost I guess I am trying to find me somewhere in all of this change. I sure hope to find me soon cause all this CHANGE is really sort of getting on my damn nerves. lol.

btw, you made complete sense and some of what you have commented has helped with my next post. Hope to finish it tomorrow.

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